“What can I possibly say about Stella? How do I summarize in meager, limited words how she made me feel? Have you ever had a perfect day, with perfect strokes of luck, and then it just kept happening until you felt like you’d crossed some invisible boundary and things couldn’t be real anymore? That’s how I felt at the end of my date with Stella. Her look–god, what a knockout. Tall, slim, bright blonde, legs that go on for miles. I must have had my mouth hanging open when she sat down with me. I knew she was gorgeous from her pictures but damn, she’s exquisite in person. I can appreciate beauty, but then she started talking and I knew she was a whole different animal–smart as a whip and thoughtful.

She’s got a million-dollar mind to match that million-dollar body, and I would have been happy to just listen to her talk all night. But after a while I realized she wasn’t just beautiful and clever, she’s highly emotionally intelligent as well. She has a preternatural sense of when to ask questions and how to tell stories that keep the conversation flowing. I realized by the end of dinner I hadn’t spoken so much or so freely in a long time, but it wasn’t because I was filling air, it’s because she kept bringing up interesting things to discuss and genuinely trying to understand my perspective on the world. You’d think it would feel invasive to have someone pay such close attention to you but with Stella it just felt loving and real.

I don’t want to delve too far into the romantic details but, her sensuality and her ability to creatively mind-fuck you is unmatched. Behind closed doors, she knows how to seduce your thoughts and manipulate them until you’re completely under her spell, the perfect blend of eroticism and control. I did my best to give her everything she asked for, and I had an amazing time doing it. She was very generous and the whole experience was a high that kept getting better and better as the hours went on. That sense of unreality, “Can I actually be this lucky?”, hit me over and over again. Looking back I still can’t believe it! Unforgettable experience for me.

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“I feel hungover as I write this, not from the wine last night but from the taste of your mouth as you kissed me on the stairs this morning. I’m crashing down right now so please excuse me if this comes off as too much or maudlin–I cannot wait to see you again. It actually hurts knowing you won’t be back again for so long. I would never try to edge into your life in an unwelcome way, I respect you and I understand that our relationship is limited by reality. But, Stella, I’m sitting here knowing I want to keep you in my life at any cost. However you want to do this, however works best for you, in whatever time you can spare for me. I don’t really know how to put into words how you made me feel. It’s like I’d been crushing something down for ages, and then last night (maybe in the car back from Daniel) it just… shifted. Something in my heart uncrumpled. I couldn’t say it out loud this morning but I just didn’t want you to leave.

I know it’s prideful but I need you to understand that things like this don’t happen to me. I knew you were gorgeous but forgive me, I’ve had only gorgeous girlfriends since college and my head doesn’t turn for that anymore. I’ve been sitting here playing with your hair tie and trying to figure out what this feeling is, but my head is a mess. I just keep thinking about the way you looked at me over your shoulder in the kitchen. You get this glint in your eye when you’re about to say something funny, and then you dropped the punchline and it was just so damn clever. I haven’t laughed like that maybe since I was a kid. I’m sorry to write this long of a message but please, let me know if there’s any favor I can do for you, or any gift or expense I can take care of, any connection I can make for you. Being with you made me feel more than alive, and I would be honored to play whatever role you’ll let me in your life.

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“Stella Steinbeck is so damn sexy that it’s almost a shame, because you spend so long stunned by her looks that you miss how clever she is at first; and with Stella, every word is worth hanging on. I’ve always been a sucker for intellectual connections and Stella had my number immediately. It’s not that often you get to spend time in the presence of an able mind, and Stella’s is positively gymnastic. The conversation went from every topic, in and out effortlessly between history, science, philosophy, culture. You can tell this girl has been a voracious reader for years because the breadth and depth of her knowledge surprised me, even though I am (ha!) many years her senior. I felt like I was not just in the presence of an intellectual equal, but an equal who was also very committed to learning whatever she could from me. She was both innocently inquisitive and archly wise, and I was immediately charmed.

One thing I appreciate about Stella that I don’t find in my regular circles is how unaffected she is. Her intellect is sharp but she uses it to cut away the underbrush, not to parry like a rapier. We spoke deeply but broadly, and I just can’t get over how intricately her mind links together all of these different ideas. Suffice it to say I was deeply turned on by this intellectual connection and the mental stimulation soon turned physical. Since our first tête-à-tête I’ve made time with Stella a priority in my life, and I feel our interludes have kept me more engaged at work and in the world at large. I never leave Stella without feeling grateful I found someone so willing to be a teacher, student, and partner in my life’s journey.
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